Not Signed In - Relate
Hallucinogens; Methadone; Narcotics; PCP (Phencyclidine) |
Alcohol addiction; Alcoholism | |
|
|
Pictures
DRUG SCREEN
<strong>INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED< strong> Photo Taken 06 04 09 Photo Added 06 06 09 Location My Apartment Hawthorne CA <strong>THURSDAY JUNE 4 2009< strong> Meditest Drug Screen Information <a href= http www meditests com t drug5 html rel= nofollow >www meditests com t drug5 html< a> Alcohol and Substance Abuse Programs Rehabilitation Center <a href= http www asaprehab com rel= nofollow >www asaprehab com< a> I am currently undertaking an internship at the Alcohol and Substance Abuse Programs Rehabilitation Center located in Altadena California Today I was directed to assist in performing drug screens on all of the male clients This is the first time that I have ever done this and it was an experience In my lifetime I am no stranger to drug testing as it is a normal procedure in and during the employment process In fact while serving in the United States Naval Service 8 Years I must have been drug tested well over 1 000 times now that s a lot of testing However it was one of those Navy drug test that came up positive in the fall of 1999 that caused my separation from the Naval Service As a result of at that time 4 years of active meth usage while enlisted I was finally caught and awarded an Other Than Honorable Discharge <strong>Damn I just realized that that was 10 years ago It would however take 8 years before I would surrender the will of my life to a power greater than myself that has changed my life and restored my life to sanity FOR WHICH I AM GRATEFUL < strong> After all of the drug screens were complete I gave myself my own drug screen I was not worried whatsoever with regard to the results as I have been clean and sober since Monday April 9 2007 and I knew the results would be<strong> NEGATIVE ACROSS THE BOARD< strong> The drug screen test for the following drugs Cocaine Amphetamine Meth Amphetamine Marijuana Morphine Opiates
substance abuse jpg
Hometown Addiction Recovery
<strong>INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED< strong> Item Added 05 01 09 Location Final Posting from My Apartment in Pasadena California USA My Hometown <strong>TODAY I AM MOVING INTO MY OWN APARTMENT IN HAWTHORNE CA< strong> <strong>Item Description < strong> The building in the center of the drawing represents the domed tower of the City Hall of the City Of Pasadena California USA The lines extending the domed tower represent the San Gabriel Mountains The Palm Trees represent the many Palm Trees that line Pasadena s residential streets The domed tower diagram was scanned by me and modified or cleaned up to show better detail especially the dome and the cupola I love domes and I especially love Pasadena s City Hall Pasadena City Hall <a href= http www ci pasadena ca us cityhall >www ci pasadena ca us cityhall< a> Entry Updated 05 03 09 Location My Apartment Hawthorne California USA I moved in to my new apartment in my new city on Friday May 1 2009 and this is the first chance I have had to update this Flickr Entry I was born in Torrance California USA and raised in Pasadena California As a native resident I received my primary and secondary education from Pasadena Schools Pasadena is also the place where my drinking and drug use began <strong>MY INNOCENSE< strong> Prior to my 16th Birthday way back in 1987 I was as I can say today a typical American kid I didn t smoke cigarettes drink alcohol or use drugs I had created the Pasadena Civic Chapter of the Students Against Driving Drunk when I was in 9th Grade 1985 1986 I submitted and was awarded a proclamation from the city of Pasadena proclaiming Students Against Driving Drunk Month in Pasadena I had been a volunteer for the Pasadena Chapter of the American National Red Cross And by 1988 I received a 5 Year Service Pin In the 10th Grade 1986 1987 I hel
e siadu gif
alcohol and other substance abuse and to support treatment and rehabilitation Selected Indicators of Alcohol and Drug Use in Past 12 Months Canada 1994 2002 Source Canadian Alcohol and Other Drugs Survey 1994 Canadian Community Health Survey 1 2 2002 Respondents who reported having 5 or more drinks on one
header jpg
SUBSTANCE ABUSE BLOG
abuse gif
Reduced Smoking Drug and Alchohol Use PUBLICATIONS Alcoholism Treatment Quarterly and International Journal of Addictions A statistical meta analysis of 198 independent treatment outcomes found that the Transcendental Meditation program produced a significantly larger reduction in tobacco alcohol and
chimage php
of the above situations within a 12 month period Alcohol abuse can develop into alcohol dependence and alcoholism 4 What are the risks of alcohol abuse and alcoholism Alcoholism carries with it a long list of psychological interpersonal social economic and medical problems Alcoholism is often linked to depression and suicide
RECOVERY FAMILY RESPONSIBILITY VIDEO
INTELLUCTUAL PROPERTY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED Video Recorded 01 16 09 Location My Brothers House South Los Angeles California Today I received a call from my brother with worry in his voice My brother shared with me that his daughter my niece had been admitted to the UCLA Medical Center Santa Monica CA to treat a bowel condition My niece is 8 Years Old and this is her first time in the hospital since birth My brother was naturally worried I comforted him over the phone as best I could I was very pleased to see how the counseling tools I have learned at school quickly came to me and I was able to use them with my brother Before hopping on the 110 Freeway Historic Arroyo Seco Parkway I stopped at the Target Store I work at in East Pasadena and purchased some items to make a quot Care Package quot for my niece She is a girly girl and loves Hanna Montana and Strawberry Shortcake It was a fun experience When I arrived at the hospital I embraced my brother and sister and handed the quot Care Package quot to my niece She loved it Since I got clean and sober April 9 2007 I have been an active member of my family I speak to my brother at least three times a week and I visit with them as often as I can My brother and I have a relationship that I NEVER IMAGINED POSSIBLE We are grown men that hug each other and say quot I LOVE YOU quot to each other I CHERISH THAT TODAY I SHARED WITH MY BROTHER THAT I HAVE A RESPONSIBILITY TO BE A LIVING EXAMPLE TO MY NIECE AND NEPHEWS AND OTHERS ABOUT THE DANGERS OF ADDICTION TO DRUGS AND ALCOHOL RECOVERY ROCKS
teen drug abuse jpg
What s the Big Deal Life happens Sure sometimes it can even be boring or a drag So you experiment with a drug that everyone is taking like Meth cocaine Ritalin Ecstasy
African American Studies
<strong>INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED< strong> Item Added 02 25 09 Location My Apartment Pasadena California Text Book Creating Black Americans Course Ethnic Studies 132 African Americans College Glendale Community College Glendale California <strong>Ethnic Studies 120 Ethnic Minorities Fall 2008< strong> I took this course during the Fall 2008 Academic Semester at Glendale Community College This course was centered around Ethnic Minorities in America and educated me on the history and creation of minority systems in America Of most interest was the uncovering of many truths about historic figures in American history such as the third President of the United States Thomas Jefferson I learned that the creed All Men Are Created Equal did not apply to African Slaves Native Americans and Women Thomas Jefferson wrote a book called Notes on the State of Virginia in which he expressed that the African Slaves Black Americans were less than human and Native Americans were savages I also learned about the various forms of discrimination and injustices that have been used by the dominate group WASP White Anglo Saxon Protestant that have continued to be used for centuries and can still be witnessed in modern society today <strong>Ethnic Studies 132 African Americans Spring 2009< strong> Although this is only the second week in this class I am developing a greater respect for my ethnic heritage as a Black Man I have a black professor who is an AWESOME WELL VERSED AND CONFIDENT ANTHROPOLITHIC SCHOLAR In my adolescence I volunteered at the Chapter House of the Pasadena Chapter of the American National Red Cross The Chapter House was a former mansion located off of Orange Grove Boulevard Millionaires Row in my hometown Pasadena California I performed many task and was very proud to be a Red Cross Volunteer I had a name tag and wore a uniform that included a white polo shirt with the Red Cr
492f323141593435383738384c jpg
Substance Abuse in the Workplace CRC
ACCEPTANCE IS THE KEY
<strong>INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED< strong> Photo Taken 02 14 09 Valentine s Day Location 12 Step Fellowship Marathon Altadena California I am forever grateful to the man in this picture for it was this man who gave me my very first Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous which I still have and use today while I was in residential inpatient treatment at the Pasadena Recovery Center in April 2007 PRE REHAB On January 9 2006 my former partner Fred L Erwin Jr ended his part in our 1 year romantic relationship as a result of my admission to the use and the continued effects of my addiction to drugs I was not always in active addiction during the course of this relationship but I had NO DEFENSE AGAINST RESORTING BACK TO ACTIVE ADDICTION WHEN MY EMOTIONS FEELINGS EXPECTATIONS AND ENVIRONMENT DICTATED A RETURN TO THE INSANITY OF ADDICTION From that moment 2006 until I entered rehab in April 2007 my drug usage would increase as I know today the addict alcoholic in active usage of drugs alcohol can not deal with reality so he she continues to use in the belief that the drugs alcohol are providing an ease and comfort to the realities of life <strong> Living in denial I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND for the life of me why he would not want to be with me and help me overcome this problem However as I know THE TRUTH to be today NOTHING HE COULD HAVE DONE would have been sufficient enough for me to get honest with myself about MY ISSUES UNTIL I WAS READY TO SURRENDER AND ACCEPT THAT I AM POWERLESS OVER MY ADDICTION AND THAT MY LIFE HAD BECOME UNMANAGEABLE < strong> Although I was still very much in love with Fred and wanted desperately to be with him of course without being honest with myself about my addiction in February 2006 I met and began dating another man As I KNOW IT TO BE TRUTH today in addition to my addiction I suffer from fear of abandonment and co dependency There was no way that I could be alone and quickly sought EASE
alcoholism help logo jpg
492f31314143504a354857534c jpg
Jewish Alcoholism and Drug Addiction An Annotated Bibliography Bibliographies and Indexes in Ethnic Studies Greenwood Press
Movies Emotions and Recovery
<strong>INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED< strong> Photo Taken 04 29 09 Location Universal CityWalk Universal City California USA Photo Description Me Standing in front of the Universal Globe the entrance to Universal Studios This evening me and my friend Loretta a recovery fellowship friend travelled out to Universal CityWalk Universal City CA to watch the movie OBSESSED starring Beyonce at the AMC Theater Before the movie we walked around Universal CityWalk We usually go to movies on Friday evenings but we decided to go this evening as we both have other plans set for this coming Friday I am moving into my new apartment woo hoo I enjoy spending time with Loretta She is a true friend We have our recovery in common and we share a love for each other that is love based supportive and build on communication and trust <strong>MOVIES AND MY EMOTIONS < strong> Life prior to my recovery from drugs and alcohol were times filled with HIGH EMOTION when it came to going to the movies I say that because while it may be normal behavior for a person to connect emotionally with a scene or theme from a movie I feel that I sometimes took it to the extreme and by that I mean I remember going to movies pre recovery and leaving crying and affected Today I believe that that behavior was based on my unresolved emotional issues that I masked with the use of drugs and alcohol which only made it worse In fact I seldom went to movies pre recovery <strong>TODAY BY THE GRACE AND THE POWER OF THE UNIVERSE I SURRENDERED AND ADMITTED THAT I AM POWERLESS OVER ALL MIND ALTERING SUBSTANCES AND THAT MY LIFE HAD BECOME UNMANAGEABLE AS A RESULT OF RESIDENTIAL INPATIENT TREATMENT ON APRIL 9 2007 AS A RESULT TODAY I AM A FREE MAN MY DRUG INDUCED AND ERRATIC EMOTINAL NATURE HAS BEEN ARRESTED AND INSTEAD OF MASKING MY EMOTIONS WITH DRUGS ALCOHOL OR CO DEPENDENT RELATIONSHIPS I CHOOSE TO PROCESS THE FEELINGS IMMEDIATELY AND CHANGE THE NE
Discharge and Addiction
COPYRIGHTED MATERIAL ALL RIGHTS RESERVED Photo Taken 12 12 08 Location Smitty s Liquor Store South Los Angeles California USA On Friday December 12 2008 my brother left and I went to the Memorial Hospital of Gardena to visit my mother right who was admitted to the hospital on Wednesday December 10 2008 as a result of an inflammed Peptic Ulcer According to my mother and the nursing staff at the hosptial the ulcer became inflammed as a result of my mother drinking a quot Pint of Hennesey Bourbon quot which caused her to lose of two pints of blood expelled via her rectum and vomiting My mother is a 53 year old untreated alcoholic and drug addict and this is not the first time that this has happened to her according to her She has been an alcoholic addict since her adolescence Upon discharge from the hosptial my brother and I took her to Target to purchase an outfit for her to wear because the clothes she wore to the hosptial were soiled My brother purchased a full outfit for her and I gave her $20 00 Prior to taking my mother home we stopped at Smitty s Liquor Store which is a block away from where she lives and has been a staple store in the dysfunction destruction of members of my family my mother s side of the family alcohol cigarettes and drugs purchased in and around Smitty s since I was about 7 My brother went into the store with my mother with the intention of purchasing a bottle of water for her As he looked around the store he said he turned around to ask our mother a question and she was gone At the same time this was happening I noticed my mother walking out of the store following behind a tall black man that was talking on his cell phone and walking toward his car I immediately knew that this was a drug deal in the making Sure enough I would witness my mother getting into this man s truck and soon after she would get out ready to go to the house where she is staying Instead of purchasing a bottle of water my mother purch
AMERIFEST 2009
<strong>INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY COPYRIGHTED MATERIAL ALL RIGHTS RESERVED< strong> Photo Taken 07 04 09 Photo Added 07 12 09 Location Rose Bowl Stadium Pasadena CA Photographer My Brother SD <strong>AMERIFEST 2009 JULY 4 2009 3RD CLEAN amp SOBER FOURTH OF JULY < strong> For the third time since obtaining my sobriety I attended the annual fireworks show at the Rose Bowl Stadium in Pasadena CA with my brother and his family <strong>Today I have been Clean and Sober since Monday April 9 2007 and I am grateful to have been able to have enjoyed this time with my family and friends without the use of drugs and alcohol RECOVERY ROCKS < strong>
Amends 1 Grateful Free Video
<strong>INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY ALL RIGHTS RESERVED< strong> Video Recorded 04 16 09 Location My Apartment Pasadena CA USA Recording Artist India Arie Artist Website <a href= http www indiaarie com >www indiaarie com< a> Song Heart of the Matter YouTube <a href= http www youtube com watch v=lJb Sq7 jjo >www youtube com watch v=lJb Sq7 jjo< a> <strong>RELATIONSHIP AND RECOVERY < strong> I met my former partner Fred L Erwin Jr at my church Metropolitan Community Church in the Valley in October 2004 We began dating and quickly forged a committed romantic relationship that began this journey on Thursday October 12 2004 Our relationship ended on Sunday January 9 2006 when Fred ended his part in our 1 year romantic relationship as a result of my admission to the use and the continued effects of my addiction to drugs Thanksgiving Day 2005 Although I was not always in active addiction during the course of this relationship as I know the truth to be today I had NO DEFENSE AGAINST RESORTING BACK TO ACTIVE ADDICTION WHEN MY EMOTIONS FEELINGS EXPECTATIONS AND ENVIRONMENT DICTATED A RETURN TO THE INSANITY OF ADDICTION IN OTHER WORDS I WAS LIVING MY LIFE IN FULL DENIAL HARMING HIM AND OTHERS WITH THE EFFECTS OF MY UNTREATED DIS EASE I entered inpatient residential treatment at the Pasadena Recovery Center on Monday April 9 2007 I have been and remain clean and sober working a full program of recovery and my life has changed Today I have a life that I have NEVER had and NEVER knew existed In working the steps I discovered where I was wrong in our relationship Step 4 I Lied to him I hurt him emotionally and I broke his trust and his heart I have not spoken directly to Fred since Friday December 29 2006 <strong>STEP 9 of ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS MADE DIRECT AMENDS TO SUCH PEOPLE WHEREVER POSSIBLE EXCEPT WHEN TO DO SO WOULD INJURE THEM OR OTHERS ATTEMPTED AMENDS < strong> At 3
Addiction The Rose Parade
COPYRIGHTED MATERIAL ALL RIGHTS RESERVED Photo Taken 12 23 08 Location Tournament House Pasadena California USA Event 120th Pasadena Tournament of Roses Parade Anyone who know s me can attest to my love for my hometown and it s biggest event The Rose Parade 20 Years Ago 1989 Rose Parade Centennial I was a senior at Pasadena High School I was addicted to Marijuana Alcohol and Crack Cocaine I would drop out of High School shortly after New Years 1989 I would later transfer to an adult school and obtain my dipolma My life was full of pain confusion about my lifestyle and life itself I would abandon most everything I enjoyed volunteering drawing e t c I would tell me father that I wasn t graduating only for him to use it as an excuse to drink quot How Could You Do This To Me quot His Words TODAY 20 Years Later I have been Clean Sober Single Celibate and Free since April 9 2007 I have returned to Pasadena as an adult resident I am a Full Time College Student undertaking coursework to become an Alcohol and Drug Counselor at Glendale Community College Glendale Ca I have set a goal to continue my education and I WILL undertake studies to become a Licensed Clinical Social Worker I understand the family dynamics that come from addiction in the family I have broken the cycle and am determined to honor the memory of my Grandmother Azzie Newsome Cole by living a life free of addiction One Day At A Time I can look back at the past 20 years and see how blessed I have been even in my active addiction 2009 The Next 20 Years TODAY I FEEL LIKE THE YOUNG MAN I WAS 20 YEARS AGO ONLY THIS TIME THERE IS NO FEAR THERE ARE NO DRUGS THERE IS ONLY HOPE FAITH AND COURAGE NECESSARY TO TAKE SOME RISK EXPERIENCE SOME HURTS GROW AND CHALLENGE MYSELF TO ACHIEVE THE GOALS I HAVE THUS FAR SET FORTH THE ACCEPTANCE THAT I AM POWERLESS OVER MY EMOTIONS PEOPLE PLACES AND EVENTS IN MY LIFE HAS CHANGED MY LIFE quot THE
FELLOWSHIP RELAPSE VIDEO
COPYRIGHTED MATERIAL ALL RIGHTS RESERVED Video Recorded 12 08 08 Location My Apartment Pasadena Ca Don t you just love that freeze frame photo of me TODAY WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAVE EVER SEEN SOMEONE THAT I KNOW FROM THE ROOMS OF MY 12 STEP MEETING THAT HAS RELAPSED ON THE STREET AND IN ACTIVE ADDICTION As I am undertaking an internship with the Salvation Army Harbor Light Shelter located in the heart of Skid Row Downtown Los Angeles it is my job to take the clients on a walk to a local store and Gladys Park As we approached 7th Street from Gladys Ave I noticed a man standing at the corner wearing a jogging suit with a suitcase standing behind him We both acknowledged each other and the first thing I said to him was quot I KNOW YOU ARE NOT OUT HERE BUYING THE LIE THAT DRUGS AND ALCOHOL REALLY WORK ARE YOU quot to which he replied quot OH I HAVE ONLY BEEN OUT HERE FOR A FEW DAYS quot He then asked me for money I handed him 35 and told him that I hoped to see him back in the rooms someday and moved on I CAN T SAVE HIM I AM NOT SUPERMAN In that moment I became INSTANTLY GRATEFUL for my recovery my life my experiences good and bad and for the removal of the obsession to drink and use ANY AND ALL MIND ALTERING SUBSTANCE DRUGS AND ALCOHOL ONLY MASK PROBLEMS AND CREATE MORE PAIN AND SUFFERING TOMORROW BY THE GRACE OF A LOVING CREATOR I WILL CELEBRATE 20 MONTHS CLEAN SOBER SINGLE CELIBATE GROWING HAPPY JOYUS AND FREE RECOVERY ROCKS AND IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT
email this page
print this page
bookmark this page
feedback on this page
